Posted by Colleen on December 22, 2008 at 8:57:00:
Seven years ago today I learned that you had passed away. There was so much that I didn't know and so much that I'd never said to you. Sara, you have influenced the way that I now speak to my loved ones, 100%. I don't hold back, and I wish I hadn't held back with you.
I know you know all of these things. You were always wise beyond your years. I wish you could be here to be a bridesmaid in my "Disney fairytale" wedding. You were so funny when we talked about things like that. "I don't care what you say, this culture raises little girls to want Disney fairytale weddings and every girl wants one, even YOU."
Yesterday I was thinking about how strange time can seem. In 7 years I've changed so much, I can barely remember the person I was before. I wonder where you would be now, if you were still here with all of us. Would you be married? Working on a career? A Master's degree? Buying a house? We're all grown up over here, and for me you're frozen in time at just 21 years old - And yet you still feel so much more wise than any of us are, even today.
You were and are a dear, good friend. You taught me so much, you made me laugh while I was crying. Your love for life and your friends and your family and your doggie was so fierce and pure.
Tiphany and I made Hello Kitty cinnamon and sugar cookies last night with black frosting and rainbow sprinkles. They were a success- all 2 1/2 dozen cookies were gone in 3 hours!! Kevin may or may not have drawn dirty pictures on the cookies with the frosting.
I was remembering how Tiphany used to walk up to you, staring straight at your chest and go, "HI SARA..." And I was wishing that I had a copy of that picture of me taking a jello shot from your cleavage. :)
I miss you. I love you. I thank you for touching my life and the lives of everyone who knew you. Thank you for showing us all what it means to be strong.
Say hello to Randy's papa if you see him... wherever you are.
Love,
Your Bitch Kitty, Leenie, Colleen.