Posted by Colleen on January 25, 2004 at 08:52:07:
Date: 28 May 2003
you told me that if you died, you wanted to make sure that no one would forget you. I feel like I’m losing you in my mind's eye, and I hate it.. pictures are hazy. the list of memories is too short. still, I listen to the CD and I cry, I wear the wondertwin rings every day for comfort and I smile when I look at them. your death changed a part of who I am, forever. along with just about everyone that I know. we all interact with each other more carefully, more forgivingly, more lovingly. I wish that I could talk to you about it, but... it's so confusing to me that physically, you're not here. and I wish that I had told you just once that I missed you, loved you, and hoped to see you soon. the one thing I am solidly positive of is that you didn't deserve this to happen to you. I don't know what more to say. :-/ I hope where ever you are, you know the things that people never told you.